CG and 'Him'

Cell group meeting today. Went to meet Wanying, Winnie and Siyi. Linus didn't come today, but I'm forcing him to come for service tomorrow, eh...today evening I should say. XD

Cell group was so touching today, Jasmine prayed for us and we cried so much. Then went to have dinner, Wanying and I totally ruined Dionis' life for a day! She was doing this weird swaying movement and Wanying recorded it. I showed it to Jasmine. LOL.

Went home early with Wanying, Siyi and Dionis, then me and Wanying chit chat about lots of stuff. We'll meet earlier tomorrow for lunch before going to service. Going to whack Linus for cheating my feeling. ;A; LOL. JK.

I like 'him', but I don't think 'he' likes me. Oh well. Hopefully what Wanying said will come true. ;D I'll be so happy~!

Short post today, very tired.

Mizuki, signing off! <3

Bitch mode rocks

LOLOLOL. Bitch mode rocks my life. It freaking let me vent my anger.

And sorry girlfriends~ You ain't getting closer to me ever again~ LOLOLOL. What's with me. XD

Exam tomorrow. Need to study like f***. I realized something too, blogs may be private, but it's not as private as you think. HAHAHAHA.

Obviously short post today. Can't think of much to write. :\

And oh, the name's Sachiko Mizuki, and remember it well, bitches! XDDDDD

-Mizuki, signing off! <3

P.S. B2st rocks.

The other side of me

HAHAHA. I'm freaking scary to others when my hidden side came out. >:3

If you guys don't know why I'm so angry suddenly, then shut it. You guys don't need to know, plus, I doubt you actually wanted to know, right? You guys are just concern for the sake of being concern. And no, I don't need you to pity me, I don't need those anymore.

Just let me be when I'm upset, I need to chill by myself or with others instead of the one that pissed me off. I'm not violent for nothing after all, but there's less than five people who know why. Weird thing is, those that are 'closer' to me sometimes doesn't even know, isn't that ironic? Huu~

If you're angry at me, then say it. Don't be a little typical bitch, yeah? One day, I might just hit you when my violent urges return. I might. I've been trying not to smack your face against the damn wall for the past month. And you know what? You must had been a dumb blond in the past. :D

If you try to be concern yet doesn't do anything to help, then GTFO. I'm not interested in your 'act of kindness'. Just leave me and let him cool me down, since he is the one that could actually calm me without making me more agitated.

Why don't you bunch be good little girls and learn when to STFU and stop annoying people, kay sweeties~? <3

Wii

Haha, yesterday was fun. :)

Went to school earlier than I thought, and met Michelle and Tommy on the bus. Walked to school together to meet Ryan and Sherry. Watched them played PSP and saw how Sherry trashed Tommy. O.o Which was, unbelievable. She must had been training! >:3 In the end, bell rang and Michelle walked off first, since Ryan and Tommy are still playing their PSP. The four of us walked towards the assembly area and then Tommy invited us to his house.

Went for lessons and good lord, it was freaking BORING. We had a Chinese composition and a Physics test. I had a feeling I might actually flunk it. :| Hopefully I don't. Then Sherry tried to 'invite' Cherie to join us for the trip to Tommy's house and when I said 'invite', it meant force. XD In the end, we had to wait for Ryan and Kenji since they're both at Chinese remedial. Sherry fought against Tommy in PSP again. LOL. PSP freaks.

In the end, we got more people joining us to Tommy's house. Me, Sherry, Cherie, Ryan, Michelle, Kenji and Tommy himself. Seven people, fourteen shoes! We went for lunch first at AMK Hub, then took bus to Tommy's house. I like his dog! It's so cute! We played Wii, Band Hero. I can't believe how much I had failed at drums but Tommy was awesome at it. Cherie was the vocalist along with Kenji and Ryan. Kenji was great at the guitar too!

Then we changed to Cooking Mama for a while. Most of us laughed at Cherie because she failed badly at it, moreover, she's a F&N student! Haha, no worry sis, you can always try again! ;D Then it turned into Wii Sports. First was tennis, Kenji and Cherie, against Michelle and Tommy. Obviously, Cherie and Kenji won at tennis because Michelle and Tommy just kept swinging the racket for no reason. SPAM! XD

Bowling was something that was freaking awesome to watch. Michelle got lots of spares and strikes, so did Ryan when he helped Cherie on her bowling. Tommy got a few too. Then came BOXING. It was so damn crazy that some of us went out to avoid the punches and to get water too. Cherie, Sherry and Ryan went home after that so left me, Michelle, Tommy and Kenji. We played Street Fighter? Something like that. I spammed till I win! >:3

Then we changed back to Band Hero again, Tommy as the drummer, Michelle/Kenji as the guitarist, and me/Kenji/Michelle as the vocalist. We went home at 8plus because our parents called. :( Sad. It was a fun day though. But for now, must buck up on exams!! Rush!!

Kite Flying

Weeeee~ Went kite flying yesterday with Linus at Buangkok[sp?] MRT there. Was supposed to go with Wanying, Eastella and Winnie but Wanying had fever, Eastella not feeling well, Winnie at service. :( End up we went and fly kite ourselves.

It's so fun! First time flying a kite. At first the breeze was very little, and we just sat and wait till the wind pick up. Haha, somewhere near evening when it gets dark then got wind. LOL. Our kite 'LongLong' [I bet YongLong sneezed the whole day!] then finally flew up! A dragon that turned into a worm when there's no wind. LOL. It crawled on the floor instead. :D But when the wind picked up, rain came. It was a small rain at first, NOTE: At First. Linus let go of the thread and the reel spin with a huge force. It was awesome.

Awesome until the 'LongLong' flew up to the highest...........and the rain became heavy, drenching us wet. We ran into the shelter and tried to pulled 'LongLong' down, but so hard! :( Lightning strike somemore. Then luckily got an uncle help us pulled the kite down before it got hit by lightning or before we had to cut the thread.

We went for a drink around 8 then go Eastella's house to hide from the rain for a while. Played Wii too. Linus cheated!! He tried to push me so that I'll lose! >:( Then Eastella turned the TV around so he lose some time. HAHA. Revenge is sweet~ I had so much fun yesterday~

Sick again.

I feel much better after a nice rant. My mood is going weeeeeee but my body's going UGH.

Yes, I'm sick again. :(

Stomach cramps, vomiting, coughing as though the heavens just fall. UGH. The stomach acid is coming up again.......


OTL

Hate is totally NOT a strong word.

You know what? You, yes. YOU. If you think this is pointed at you, well, it might, it might not. Don't think too much or else your fragile brain will break. Seriously, totally not kidding. I need to vent my anger, my frustrations and every of my emotions so stfu if you can't understand my feelings. You probably can't anyway. FML.

Back to the topic, yeah you. I had enough of this damn thing. I had enough of you guys. I had it with this last thing. You don't fucking treat me like some kind of doll, you got that, stupid bitch? I treat you as a friend before I love you as one, but it doesn't mean that you can mess around with me as if I am a doll. Fuck. You. Standing up for you was the worst thing I could had ever done, but no, I do not feel regret, I only feel remorse. Regret is for the bitches and bastards that doesn't think so get that into your freaking head.

If you think you're the only one who suffered from it, get your head out of your ass before I strangle you with my bare hands and stab you with my knife cause obviously you're not the only one who is hurting from this. If you seriously think that you are, well, You. Are. Fucking. Blind. But if you're smart enough, you'll had already noticed that I started drifting ever since that. And no, I'm not going to let you get any closer anymore. You don't know me as well as you think. I don't know how I feel so stop pretending to be.

I'm sick of this, I tired of this mask that I had to put on no matter where am I. In school, in church, even in my own fucking house so if you think I'm being truthful with you, you really need to go see a doctor. And no, the voice and words that I had said to you on the phone, was a total bullshit. I never was okay, and you should know that, and the worst thing I had heard was 'forgive and forget'. Get your brain screwed in right, if I had done that a long time ago, do you think I would ran away? Do you think I would try suicide? DO YOU EVEN THINK THAT I'LL TURN OUT LIKE THIS?? Apparently you do not think.

FML because you're there to screw up the day for me.
FML because you're not there to comfort me.
FML because you don't even know I'm upset for you and because of you.
Basically, just FML.

SCREW YOU BITCHES. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. GO ROT IN HELL. I. DON'T. GIVE. A. FUCKING. DAMN. ANYMORE.